This week is a personal testimony of God’s faithfulness to His healing provision for us.  Before I tell you how God ministered healing to my body and revelation to my spirit on how to believe, I must give you some background information.

About ten years ago I fell going up some steps; falling forward on the steps. I landed on my knees on a step, my elbows on a step with my wrists and ankle creasing the steps accordingly.  My face just a couple of inches from hitting on a step.  The x-rays showed no broken bones and the doctor said there would probably be some deep bruising. I was given some prescriptions for pain and muscle relaxers.  Though I was grateful for the report of no broken bones, I was sore for days, and had no idea that I would be in this long fight for my returning health.  I dealt with my wrists and elbows aching at times for what seemed to be no reason; with my ankles, knees, and hips “giving out” while walking, causing me to stumble and sometimes fall.  I’ve dealt with swollen ankles constantly.  Through these past years I’ve had shots in an ankle and one knee.  I had physical therapy for my knees and ankles at different times during these years.  I’ve worn support wraps on my knee and ankles, and even one of those awful looking support boots!  I even used a cane at one point.

Now I must say that though I had problems throughout these years, I in no way want to give a wrong impression that it was always a 24/7 type of situation.  Sometimes it was worse than others and sometimes I “was sure” the healing was “final and complete”, only to twist my ankle or knee just a tiny bit and the pain and problem began all over again.  If not careful, this can make one weary in well doing (believing).

Now during all this time I believed God for my healing to be manifested.  I had my Bible Scriptures on healing that I read each day, more than once a day.  I spoke to my body to be healed in the Name of Jesus.  I did all I knew to receive the healing that God had already provided.  (Isaiah 53:5, 1 Peter 2:24)   My thoughts and beliefs are that if Salvation has already come in Jesus, then healing has already come in Jesus.  The problem is not so much the question of whether God has provided Salvation, healing or even prosperity etc., as it is whether or not we can believe Him for them.  The question is not whether we are in faith or out of faith if we go to a doctor, as much as it is whether we are keeping our eyes on the Great Physician when using medical help available to us in this world.  Sometimes it’s a question of how long are we willing to wait and not grow weary in believing Him for the provision to be manifested. We must understand that we are not fighting God for our healing; He is not withholding it.  But we are fighting Satan who does not want us healed but “comes to steal, kill and destroy us”.  (John 10:10)  Though I believe that healing is provided for us and the answers for healing are sent immediately, we all know that healing isn’t always immediate or instant. This was where I was in this “walk of healing”.

Now before I go further in this testimony, let me assure you that no one is to feel badly if they think they have not received healing while someone else received theirs.  No one should feel like they are second-rate if their healing comes through going to a doctor or surgeon.  On the flip side of that is the fact that no one should feel they are first-rate or of “super faith” if their healing came without the use of modern medicine.  There is no comparison in that area; that is a trap of the enemy to keep us from focusing on the Truth of the Word of God. I have been in both situations and can tell you from experience that in all honesty I think it takes as much or more faith to go to a doctor than to not.  Fear can come and torment us in either case.  Sometimes it just comes down to “where” do we want to fight our fight of faith?  In that respect we should not compare ourselves with anyone else.  We are to only to compare ourselves with what the Word says and whether or not we are obeying and pleasing God.  God is never angry with anyone who goes to a doctor or has surgery.  After all who do we think gives them the wisdom if not God.  So why would He get angry.

So there may be some who are thinking “why then believe God” over going to modern medicine?  The answer for me is, “why not”?  His healing is more effective and has no bad side-effects, and is less costly for us.  He has already paid the price for our healing through the Blood of Jesus.   He provided it in the Salvation of Jesus.  It is His plan for us.

So let’s get to the turning point of my “walk of faith” for my healing.  As I said I was reading, and re-reading, Scriptures on healing, books on healing, to build my faith and keep me focused on the provision of healing through Jesus.  One day I was walking across our living room and almost fell.  I remember telling my husband that “if this healing wasn’t manifest soon” I was going back to the doctor.  Almost immediately the Scripture came to mind about the healing of the ten lepers in Luke 17:14 that tells us “that as they went they were cleansed” and verse 15 says “when they saw they were healed”.   My next thought was, “Guess I haven’t ‘went’ far enough with my faith”.  Then I remembered what Jesus said to the woman with the issue of blood; that it was her faith that made her well. (Matthew 9:22)  Jesus also told the blind man in Matthew 9:29, that according to his faith let it be done.  So I repented of my doubting words and thoughts and received my forgiveness and then went back to the healing Scriptures to feed and build my faith.

That was the turning point for the healing being manifested.  It was the beginning of getting to the end.  The total healing victory didn’t come immediately.  I wish all healings were immediate but they are not.  I kept my course and my faith intact, established on the very Word of God.  I monitored closely my thoughts and words about any and every slightest doubt about every symptom, “casting down imaginations and thoughts” (2 Corinthians 10:4-5) that tried to exalt themselves against the Word of God.  I rebuked (resisted) fear, giving it no place in my thoughts or words. (James 4:7)

The victory is that this day I stand before you saying that God is faithful to His Word of providing healing for us.  I can move my ankles in any direction without pain; the swelling is gone.  I can do steps that I couldn’t before.  Praise be to God for His mercy, love and healing.

I pray that if any of you are dealing with sickness and disease that you will continue to trust God for His healing power to restore health unto you, and for wisdom for every decision you need to make for your recovery.

Some of my healing Scriptures:

Psalm 107:20:  He sent His word and healed them and delivered them from them from their destructions.

Jeremiah 30:17:  I will restore health to you and heal you of your wounds, says the Lord. 

Jeremiah 33:6:  I will heal them and reveal to them the abundances of peace and truth. 

Isaiah 53:5, 1 Peter 2:24:  By whose stripes we were healed.

Matthew 9:29:  According to your faith let it be to you.

Romans 10:17:  So then faith comes by hearing, and hearing by the word of God.